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It's pretty interesting to be in a drama, and as an audience at the same time.

*ahem* Drama = be it on stage or social drama*

First of all, I've no idea why but I just felt like putting something... some footsteps, history, so i can something to read when I'm bald with grey side hair and ..alone. wtf damn emo.

Personally, to be in both positions at one time...It's like a time-travelling thing, I don't know how to explain it exactly... but yea, it's cool.

My question is, what's your point/opinion towards two good friends of yours making out?

BOOO- I'd asked that to a few people and as I expected, " Nononononono...it's wrong! how could it be? good friends? nonononono, no way~ "

One of them actually came back and said maybe it could be the result of our beings as well - Asians.
I agreed.
I mean, it's impossible to find a person who practically and mentally accepts, behaves, acts etc.etc. openly and he has no wrinkles at all if he died at the age of 121. =_=
Jebus! Just accept it, Asians will never be any more open/let loose in all kinds of matter.
Warned! I'm not saying I'm F-ing accepting and broadly minded. I am being conservative in various issues too.

Back to the Q, so yea, what's your take on that event happening right in front of your eyes?

{ I do need lots of feedbacks, comments and critics. I am accepting any kind of shootings with all my heart. :) }

My words and statements are confusing all the time, so let me declare these beforehand...

I kissed a good friend of mine, and it happened in front of other buddies.

You might guess it right, but whatever. :P
I had instinct some time ago that this would happen.
Here's the synopsis I remember roughly,
- He was drunk, maybe half drunk, still we were dancing on the floor in the club. But as usual whenever we dance on the floor - head lockings, so-called hot dance shit. lol.
I didn't know why but we just kissed! and totally making out while dancing to the music ( hell! the music was really great that night due to Madonna's HardCandy launch ).
I didn't push him away nor ask/say anything. We just kept dancing and the kiss just went on and on until a friend of ours came " omg omg " laughed, and pushed both of us away from each other. The other friends, haha, the looks on them were like and they said " Kaze, you fucking kissed him! How could you!? ". The good friend i kissed couldn't recall who he made out with. awkwardness is there I assumed very much when he was told about it by other friends.

....sigh, everyone actually thinks I'm such an innocent good boy, won't go flirt around and stuff.
As one always yells, " Where is my good-boy Kaze? come back ! come back! " hahahahaha.

" I can kiss you RIGHT now if you want to! " .....buddies kinda' quiet when i said that. :P

BUT COME ON, I can do those things if I wanted BUT it's under my good control.
Kissing? let me clarify this, it is just a kiss. A make out. A natural act that two (maybe more wtf) individuals would do under some un-explainable conditions/situations/circumstances.

Matter of fact, I'm able to put away the inhibition to kiss anyone and I really enjoy kissing. what's more, a much comfortable kiss if the other part is a friend.
It's like a heaven-like sensation when the lips touch, I meant, this will not happen if you totally throw your tongue to me instantly. I hate it.
I kiss passionately - if that's what you call - and it makes me feel good. And I'm standing strong (always) on my argument : there will never be any deep feelings towards the person I kiss.

Again, it's just a kiss. and to people who are still confused about the beings of a slut ( LOL ), erm, I don't know how to elaborate for you. Slut, by definition, is labelled upon a person who is deemed sexually promiscuous.
READ THAT! i myself can totally respect/accept you , any of you, having ONS..sleep around yada yada..because it's you, your life, not mine. No offence, you're not a slut yet.
I could be sexually active too, just not yet, I have my stand on my principles.

Everything aside. I do think it's pointless to blabber further.
It's there, no, they are there - The thoughts and perceptions coming from AND staying in all paths.
I don't know, but I just feel it. The look in the witnesses' eyes. And for sure, the look on his face by the next night few of us met up for a drink.

I am depressed. was being really a fuckface at work. Colleagues cheered me up, love 'em.
Wanting so bad to assure him that, " Excuse me, it's just a kiss. please, there's no any other thoughts at all. And thank you, 'cuz it was kinda good with the pierced tongue. Something different. wtf wtf. LOL "
Goddamnit, I really don't want to lose this friendship. I really enjoy being his company and vice versa. The only friend who bitches about anything, great fun, laughs, blablablablabla..
You know that kind of friend you really like, but hell! impossible the love-like. get what i meant?

=____= should I talk to him now? days later? weeks? months? ..or no need, act normal nia~ no need to cakap banyak-banyak wtf. ______SO, i just told him this noon that I wanna' assure him it was just a kiss..nthg much.
Since there's no any further discussion, I assume everything's ok. Maybe no, I don't think so. Sigh why i'm so miserable one. :(

I even thought of travelling alone wtf so random. AWAYYYY from social depression.
Plant my feet in the cold sand, enjoy the ocean breeze, lil' sun tanning, maybe work in a farm (the caucasian ones 'cuz they have good natural scenery around them most likely lol), social service...hmmm, i would like to do some childhood education. love to "preach" the kids.. ha~

I don't mind if you call me a freak or any names you can thought of (muka cirit-birit wtf), because I sincerely a coward and thinks only about himself, floating in his own naive thoughts.

anyway, if you would like to share anything, PLEASE do so. I love it and appreciate it very much.
cheers.