Bossy me.
There are times when we're just not in the mood of being friendly. I have a bad temper. I get pissed-off easier than you say "FUCK!". Do not interupt me when my flame is on. ...Well, you can tell when the fire is on. ;P Is this a matter of human's nature?
I just realised everyone in this world has selfishness. NO ONE is 100% a good person. You can be selfish in all sorts of ways. For good or for bad, it's up to you.( I'll come back to this later.)
Living in a big community here at MMU Malacca is awesome. You get to know many, really many, people from places, locally and internationally. I feel great when i meet people i know and a " HI! " + smile always do great. Eventhough you don't know them and you always meet each other in campus, eventually you smile to each other and start to say hello and last...become friends. That explains why many guys keep asking me for 'How-to-know-chun-chicks-for-dummies-wtf ?'. Oh, hot/pretty girls can be found mostly as degree students. cute ones > foundation studies. LOL. Yeah. As what's before during high school days, my girl-friends get a higher amount than my boy-friends. ( erm...so? ) I'm sorta popular-la. ;P
As time passes slowly( and fastly at the same time), I figured out that deep inside... I envy friends around me actually, though they somehow envy me that I can easily blend into the situationwith anyone. I mix with many groups of people. I don't belong to any of the groups and so i don't have true close friends. I do have favourite lunch and dinner mates. But I just feel loved when anyone bothers about me. Ha-ha. It's a good thing 'cuz you have attention. =)
Being self-centred and sensitive, tiny and detailed things in life bothers me a lot and make me go wild with thoughts. Some people are suprised and entertain me whenever I tell them what i'm thinking, some... they give you " Oh. " or continue with what they're doing. I have developed this hard-to-express trauma since young.
Selfishness? Have a drink at coffeeshops, mamak stalls, Starbucks, CoffeeBean...or just sit peacefully anywhere where you can see people and observe. There's just always a kind of expression or look on their faces, which I can't tell how, that tells you their ego. We all have things which related to our selfishness for most of the time. I have no idea why some of us prefer to eke our own lives.
" What's with all kinds of wars, fights, disagreement/argument etc. ? ... I think these are childish and fuck those people la ! "
In that point of view of mine, lots of selfishness have been stored inside indirectly.
I truly think that it's always a matter of a person's concern, sensitivity, thoughts, love for things and all, and most importantly ......
...can we come to a consensus saying selfishness applies to 98.453219% of everything?
Observe and you'll see babe.